Dear Miss MacDonald,

I have just found your web site and having only to date had time to read a few of the letters/articles can say how sorry I am not to have found the site earlier!

The majority of the correspondence appears to come from ladies who are dominating, or who want to dominate their husbands or partners. I thought that you might like to hear the thoughts of someone who has had the opportunity of being a grown up baby for some two years now, and has loved every minute of it! I was not forced into becoming an adult baby - in fact quite the contrary!

I am middle aged and have had my baby fantasy for, I would say, about 15 years. It certainly does not go back to, or as a result of, my childhood. I do not really know when my fantasy started in earnest but I do know that it germinated by wanting to feel the experience of wearing a nappy and a pair of frilly baby pants.I always saw myself as as a baby girl. My fantasy started in pre-internet days of course, and actually being able to buy appropriate baby clothes and accessories was very difficult - my 'wardrobe' for many years consisted solely of a couple of bibs and dummies!

My partner, Susan, had no suspicion of my fantasy for many years until one morning about two years ago I woke up with a dummy in my mouth! There was silence, shock/horror, I don't know what. Then Susan said that for a number of nights she had noticed that I had started to suck my thumb during sleep, and also had made what she thought were baby-like noises. She had bought the dummy as a joke!

I decided to come clean so to speak and said that actually I had enjoyed baby thoughts for many years. Again there was silence for a little while, until Susan said that she could accept my feelings and would be prepared to take forward my fantasy so long as it was only within the four walls of our house.

Initially I bought a few fluffy, adult-size nappies and frilly plastic pants over  the net, and from then on I wore these under my trousers whilst in the house. I was also allowed to suck my dummy. I should say at this point that ever since my fantasy began I have loved to suck a dummy - it is so comforting. More recently I have bought a couple of large dummies made especially for big babies from the USA, which have large teats/nipples, and are much easier to keep in place.

As the months went by Susan got to really enjoy being a mummy, and in due course herself suggested that we take forward the fantasy. I happily agreed. Some baby girl dresses, petticoats, baby panties and nighties were bought, again via the net (expensive but good) and Susan, who is a good dressmaker, also made made me a couple of day wear gingham dresses together with a couple of Victorian style pinnies to wear over them. We were lucky to see advertised for sale a solid wood victorian cot, which is much bigger than the cots of today, and I was able to fit into it despite the fact that I am just under six foot tall. The cot was placed in our spare room which we redecorated to make it more like a real nursery.

I do not wear nappies when I go out (incidentally I always wear terries as opposed to disposables which I just do not like to wear), but whenever I am at home I wear my baby girl clothes, am treated as a baby and I am called 'Amanda'. At night I sleep with my wife and we enjoy our sex life, but whenever I have a nap I am put into my cot. We have more recently also bought a high chair and I have all my meals in it - I feed myself, but after each meal Susan always cuddles me on the sofa and feeds me with a warm bottle of milk.

Sorry I fear I have gone on a bit. All I can say I really enjoy being treated as a baby and quickly and easily fall into the role. Without Susan it would just not work of course, but she is so supportive and I know she enjoys her role play as well. If you would like to hear a little more of my activities as a grown-up baby, including the involvement of a neighbour who is the only other person who knows of my way of life, I would be happy to write further. Should there be any other 'babies' out there who would like to talk to me and discuss our fantasies then I would love to hear from them. I can be contacted at Amanda08@sissy.net.

Thanks for listening to me.
Yours sincerely,
 
Baby Amanda

What a wonderful partner you have, Amanda, and her buying you a dummy, even as a joke, showed, I think, that she would be understanding of your special baby needs. So many husbands find sucking a baby's dummy to be comforting and relaxing, and it is a pity that their wives will not buy them a few dummies and then progress on to bibs, nappies, and baby frocks. They would find that their hubbies would be ever so grateful, and would do anything for them.

It sounds like you have a really gorgeous layette, Amanda, and I would love to see you dressed up. I am sure I have said it before, but let me reiterate that any women contemplating nursery discipline should obtain soft, fluffy terry towelling or flannelette nappies for their big babies. Disposable nappies are just awful, and apparently are made from some kind of wood fibre. What baby would wish to wear wood around their most delicate parts, in place of soft, cuddly cotton?

Incidentally, Baby Amanda has stated that she wants her e-mail address to be published, and has given her full permission. She would like to correspond with any interested readers.
Susan